BalloonMolly

I really want to wipe my entire gallery and start over - except that I HARDLY find inspiration to draw at all anymore, I'd never get a single new deviant up.  *sigh*  I must admit, I am tired of getting a bazillion favs on my backgrounds.  I should be happy with that, but they're so OLD and I'm so TIRED with them, I get so irritated when I sign on and its "10 new messages" and they're all about the one background. I try to draw ALL the time, and yet every time I pick up the pencil, nothing comes out.  The little bits of crap that I've come up with in the last few months aren't even worth looking at twice, let alone posting.  I don't know why

When I look at my front page and realize that I haven't updated my journal in two years. It seems however that I never have anything worthwhile to say, as I really have no fair contribution to this board. I often look at deviantArt and deeply wish that I was more involved with my art.  Everytime I look at those I watch, I get inspired.  As fast as I can, I whip out my sketchbook and pencil and pens, yet I never seem to get anywhere.  The lead never comes, the ink never flows.  For so long, I wanted to do something with my art, something for the rest of my life.  But it seems that the more I *try* to draw, the less I actually do it. As so he

so i really have nothing to say here, cause i don't write journals here. but i'm really tired of  that ANCIENT entry being on my front page, seeing as its from 2005 and its 2007 now. -__- happy new years?